God's Passion

How much can you learn in one lifetime? How much information can your brain process before it is done. How much can one heart hold before it is full? I don’t’ expect an answer because I see how God keeps expanding it all. Right when I think okay, I have learned enough, or I can’t hold anymore, or I just can’t deal with anymore God gives me more. I don’t know how He does it or how we do it but it happens. The capacity of our hearts and lives amazes me. The amount of information and experience one life can hold leaves me in awe. It is even more mind boggling when you think that in Heaven we are going to be even more full. That is something I am going to leave up to God to understand. My finite brain is to small when I think of things on God’s level. But yet that is the way He wired us. To dream, and think in the way that He does. The way that He made our hearts. God has placed in me (and in each one of us) such a huge inconceivable dream that I want to see happen. If you look at it or think about it in the flesh I really should just go home. It won’t happen in my lifetime if I am doing it on my own. But God put it inside of me. It is so beyond human possibility that the only way to see it happen is to join God and what He is doing. It is after all His dream and passion and I just get the privilege of being a part of it Thinking of it in that exciting way I don’t want to live any other way. I get so excited and have so much joy when I go out and pursue that passion that God has put in my heart. I love talking about it and seeing others start to catch a vision for it. Now, you are probably wondering what the heck it is. Well, so not to keep you in suspense I will tell you. It is to see discipleship groups (big and small) growing all over the world. I will start small in South Africa because that is where God has me here for this season. But one day I want to see it grow up through Africa and then into the Middle East, Asia, Europe and then over to the Americas. That isn’t to big is it? I really don’t think so since God already has workers in place doing it and I am just joining an existing work. God is working in my life in some painful ways right now but it is so good. Because it is igniting my heart for Him and His plans for my life. I am finding such a passion for the people here and to disciple them and for them to grow to do the same for others. I will be honest and say that the vision is really from All Nations but I am catching and owning it and making it personal. I have been reading some great books about it too. Two that I would suggest is Floyd McClung’s book “You See Bones I See an Army” then also Neil Cole’s book “Organic Church”. Both are amazing

Touched by the Holy Spirit

When was the last time I posted? I can’t even remember. These past weeks have been so hectic. I haven’t even been at the place I live except to sleep. I don’t know why I do this to myself but the amazing thing is that God works through it and is teaching me to change.
This past week was so amazing for me and the pivotal point for my time so far. I go to the classes of the church planting school so that I can keep updated with my team and also I take all that I can get. I especially wanted to be there for this week though. We had a Scottish teacher this week talking about the Holy Spirit. He was one of my favorite teachers last year and I knew it would be even better this year. I was right. The first day of his teaching we had prophecies and amazing ministry time. I don’t want to say that it doesn’t happen any other time because it does. But he is very gifted in bringing out the gifts of the Holy Spirit in people and drawing the people out that aren’t used to it or are scared of it. So, that is how the week that God ministered to me began.
I didn’t know it but I had really let things build up on my heart day after day instead of going to God everyday and off loading to Him. It builds up so quickly especially when it concerns my walk with God. You can let the littlest thing in and right away you feel its effects on your walk. Well, come Thursday night I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I cried my entire ride home (only about 10 minutes) then sat in my car for about 40 minutes. So, for close to an hour I sat crying out to God and letting it all come out. I was honest and opened up my heart to Him. I had no idea how He was going to respond. It confirms so much to me how much God really loves us. God has a heart for the nations and for all peoples to worship Him but more importantly He wants to take care of our hearts. He wants us to go out and serve Him but more important than that He wants our hearts to be right with Him. He cares so much for the littlest things in our lives and that makes Him such a good God. He spoke so personally to me that night but the best was yet to come. The next day was focused on the prophetic gifting and through seven different people God confirmed to me everything He had spoken to me personally plus more. I have never been so touched in my life! In two days God not only broke down disappointments, hurts, and grudges that had been building up around me but then put me to higher place than I was before. He is Amazing! It is such an exciting place to be. God is making the direction He is taking me in more clear and He is preparing me in the ministry that He wants to catapult me into. I have so much to learn but then again that is what I came here for. I knew God had things He wanted me to learn and gain from the people here and already it has been such a rich time. I am so excited to see where God points to next and how He does it. Just looking into my past I can see how present He was through it all so looking into the future is even better. The words I received that day were so incredible to me and if you want to hear more about them let me know. I can write you a personal e-mail telling you all about them. So, thank you to all of you who have been praying for me because God is really answering prayers. He is taking me far beyond anything I thought would happen!