What can I say after staying away from my blog for so long? God is still moving in my life, bringing up things that I need to learn but mostly helping me walk out the things I have learned so far.
One major thing is not walking in the fear of man but in the fear of God. A few weeks ago a couple from Pretoria, who are a real father and mother in the Lord, prayed me through identifying that strong hold in my life and starting to walk free of it. I was a huge people pleaser. Always wanting to look good in others eyes, never wanting to let others down, and certainly never wanting to walk in a way that would cause conflict. The couple prayed with me until I could remember the exact moment that certain spirit took root in my life and how it effected me. It was so overwhelming. I didn’t even fully realize how big it was until I started to walk in that freedom. It weighted me down and controlled what I did and said in such a huge way. Trying to live up to what I thought people expect of me and then to they way people live their own life just gets to be to much at one point. You can’t be who God really created you to be and you can’t walk in that freedom that He has waiting for you. It really does hold so much back from you. I wish I could say that it has been easy but that would not be true. But it is the hardship that makes it so much more a God thing. Everyday I am faced with the temptation to give into the fear of man but when I resist it, it is afterwards that I feel the freedom washing over me! Walking in a way that pleases God is more amazing than I thought! It gives me so much joy, peace, and refreshing!
And that is probably what I can narrow down everything I have learned up to this point. God is doing such amazing things in my life and in the lives of those people up in Red Hill and it all revolves around having Him the center of our life. Nothing in between us, nothing holding us back from the power that He gives us. When we realize what holds us back from Him and get rid of it you will be unstoppable. The whole power of the Holy Spirit that is inside of you will be seen on a whole new scale. Of course we have access to that power right now and it is always there for us to see but imagine more. Being closer to God in such an intimate way that there is nothing standing there waiting to be taken care of. Clear access to His throne, His Power, His Glory! All of that indwelling in you, in your very being just waiting for you to want badly enough to share it. I can only picture this in my imagination but I want to see it become real in my life, in the lives of the people I am around and the ones that I disciple.